What Is My NExt TaRgEt?

What Is my futher life?who would be with me in this life?haha...long time dint write blog...just come and type somethings inside...nothing much to type...but i experience alot of things in this few months...

Plan to buy a new car,but,scare have no enuff money to Paid,haha...what to do?izzit is important to change the car?but i using this car..here spoil there spoil..izzit i need to really chage the car?

family and friend is now i wanted...but frinship i lose someone,its hurt,,she dunno,but someone i get closer with her...i`m feel good...haih...

Pl@nning....

Se Chik Now plan a lot of things...haih..plan to go somewhere can really cool down and have a very good rest...nothing regret for me...going to step far more..challenge myself.but 1 things for sure.i have no any plan to deside eat meat yet..hahaha...wait few more days..i will update my blog...

FeelS Guud Or Fee|s B@d?

In thiS world,we will have many things we want to do,we want to get it,but some how,somethings bloke us,haih...what we can do?

Here to share what i want...i want a house,i want a good girlfriend,i want a car,i want a good friends,i want have a good career,and i want go TRAVEL and last and also most important is i want a good family(but somehow this is impossible)

so,dun be sad..god can give you somethings and also god can take everthings from us,this is true? where is my spiritual life?what is my religion?dunno..pending...say me are christian?i belive i`m not there..but i belive god will wait for me and always is my father,am i a buddhist?i also dunno.. chinggay i also go...

after resign boys` brigade?is good or bad?now.i wanted that things..i easily to get it and not control by time,if i`m join BB.1st cant do is BGR..and my career will be influnce..haih..dun comment so much bb..drop this topic.

what is my next target?most properly.i want go futher study.but also..i having finiancial problem.but i belive.this want can be solve..just matter i want to do it ornot.my friend said.. impossible is nothings.is true..everyone have a dream.but my dream is...be a sucessful ppl in this world.i dun wan to be a millionair. i just want a simple life..easy...

所謂的曾經，就是幸福 ~

中午，我站在學校大門口當交通導護，幫助一年級的小朋友放學。

卓新勇的母親，悄手悄腳提著一個便當在校門口。 被我一喊，她露出不好意思的表情。

「老師啊！．．．」

「哎呀！我不是跟妳講了嗎？學校不喜歡家長替孩子送便當。

如果每個媽媽都像妳這樣，學校大門就擠滿了人，那樣，我們怎麼放學呢？」

「我知道！我知道！」哼！知道了還送，簡直是明知故犯。

「妳不會讓他自己帶便當嗎！」

「我知道！我知道！」這些話，不曉得說了幾次。

每次一到中午，送便當的家長和放學的一年級小朋友，常常相撞在一起，造成相當的困擾。

卓新勇是一位沈默寡言，乖巧內向的孩子。

有次上課，他竟然打瞌睡，我很訝異，把他叫起來。

「怎麼了？」他一臉迷惘站起來，不回答。

第二天上課，也是這樣，我實在受不了，狠狠地把他叫過來。

「你到底怎麼了？」

我已經氣得半死，口氣已經控制不住。

突然，他垂頭淌下淚水。我暗自一驚。

「說呀！到底為什麼上課要打瞌睡呢？」

我媽媽住院了！昨天一直在醫院陪她。」

我一聽愣住了，頓時，心中的怒氣消失了，代之而起的是無限慚愧，「她為什麼住院呢？」

「是肺癌！」我一聽，心都涼到腳底。

心中想到身體贏弱的卓新勇。

如果，不幸那天來臨，他將如何繼續往後漫長的歲月呢？

想到這兒，不禁鼻酸。吃飯時，妻子在餵兒子吃飯，

我不禁想起，以前卓新勇的母親偷偷摸摸替他送便當。



第二天下班後，我騎著機車到醫院探望他母親。

幾個禮拜沒見，卓新勇的母親瘦得不成人形，蒼白的臉，光禿的頭，簡直不敢相信就是她。

她看到我，顯得很驚訝，努力想站起來，但是，一咳嗽，整個人歪了一邊。

「不要站起來！不要站起來！」

「老師！謝﹍﹍謝謝你！」她吃力喊著，眼眶消出淚水。

在醫院的走廊，卓新勇的父親對我說：「只剩下兩個月了！嗚！我﹍真的不知要怎麼辦？」他老淚縱橫。



回到學校，報告校長。

「他爸爸已經六十多歲了，現在母親又將離開人間，是不是我們可以發動全校募款。不管多少，都可以幫助他。」校長爽快答應。

經過幾天募款活動，我們總算募到五萬二千一百二十元。

把錢送到醫院時，卓新勇的母親已經在昏迷中。

「我們準備今天送他回家！」卓新勇的父親，臉形憔悴得發白。我一聽，心頭抽搐一陣。

「老師！能不能幫個忙？」

「請說！我能夠做到的，我一定答應。」

「他前幾天，一直拉著卓新勇的手，喊著：媽媽不能再替你送便當了！我想，請老師再讓她送最後一次便當，只有送便當時，他才真正感受到一位為人母親的榮耀。」 聽到這兒，我百感交集地點點頭。



中午，一輛救護車呼拉拉開到學校大門口。

卓親勇的父親和一名醫護人員，推著擔架上的人。

我淚水盈眶，站在旁邊，伴當交通導護老師。

「到了！到了！」卓新勇的父親買了一個便當，躺在擔架上的卓新勇的母親，伸出瘦細蒼白的手提著便當，在旁邊人員推送下，慢慢靠近大門口的鐵門。

在鐵門的另一邊，卓新勇伸出右手，接過母親的便當。

「媽！」卓新勇嚎啕大哭。

這時，我清楚見到她母親瘦削的臉頰，抽搐了一下，彷彿想說話，但是，又說不出來。

「媽！我不要！我不要妳走！」卓新勇呼天搶地叫著。

我的淚水，再也控制不住，嘩嘩而落。我暗恨自己，以前是多麼殘忍！



隔天，卓新勇的母親就去世了。

卓新勇的母親出殯後。

一天， 卓新勇的父親來到我辦公室，遞給我一包牛皮紙。

老師！這是你和學生們幫助我的錢，我認為還有更多的學生，需要這筆錢，所以，還給你們。謝謝你熱心幫忙。」說完，錢一放，就掉頭離去。

這筆錢彷彿生熱似的，直燙著我心坎。

我天天找卓新勇聊天話家常。深怕他經不起喪母的打擊。

「老師！你放心！我很好！你不要一直替我擔心！」

卓新勇對我說「我很早就知道，我母親就要死了，我也不是不想聽你話，叫媽媽不要送便當。因為，一天當中，只有中午，我才能吃到我媽媽煮的飯。」

我心頭一凜，「為什麼呢？」

她很虛弱，家裡都是爸爸在煮飯。只有中午爸爸不在，她才能偷偷背著爸爸煮飯。是她堅持要送便當的。」說完，卓新勇淌出淚水。



很感人吧！我看到一半就忍不住眼淚就掉下來了！

各位∼趁著父母健在的時候，好好的孝順他們喔！

不然........將來後悔也就來不及了！

一直以為幸福在遠方，在可以追逐的未來。

我的雙眼保持著眺望，我的雙耳仔細聆聽，唯恐疏忽錯過。

後來才發現---那些握過的手，唱過的歌，流過的淚，愛過的人......

所謂的曾經，就是幸福

ToUcH|nG StoRy

世上最美味的泡面

他是个单亲爸爸，独自抚养一个7岁的小男孩。这是他留下孩子出差当天发生的事。因为要赶火车，没时间陪孩子吃早餐，他便匆匆理离开了家门。一路上他担心着孩子有没有吃饭、会不会哭，心老是放不下，即使抵达了出差地点，也不时打电话回家。可孩子总是很懂事也要他不要担心。然而因为心里牵挂，他草草处理完事情，便踏上归途。回到家是孩子已经熟睡了，他这才松了口气。旅途上的疲惫，让他全身无力。正准备就亲时，突然大吃一惊：棉被下面，竟然有一碗打翻了的泡面！“这孩子！”他在盛怒之下，朝熟睡中的儿子的屁股，一阵狠打。“为什么这样不乖，这样调皮，把棉被弄脏了要给谁洗？”这是妻子过世之后，他第一次体罚孩子。“我没有……”孩子抽抽咽咽地辩解着：“我没有调皮，这……这是给爸爸吃的晚餐。”原来孩子为了配合爸爸回家的时间，特地泡了两碗泡面，一碗自己吃，另一碗给爸爸吃。可是因为怕爸爸那碗面凉掉，所以放进了棉被底下保温。爸爸听了，不发一言地紧紧抱住孩子。看着碗里剩下的那一半已经泡涨的泡面：“啊！孩子，这是世上最……美味的泡面啊！”

M|sS YoU..Do U Be|eVE?

I Cant Stop Missing you,you can see my calender...what day and what i do..this is me every month scedule...Hehe..

Maybe you will 1 day leave me...That times come...i really dont know what to do...but for now.i will enjoy my hapiness time with you.sometimes i make you angry..i`m here to say sorry.but what i espect you!is be mature...maybe you still are young..but no matter how.. your studies and your family come first...3rd is me never mind...

I cant feed you everyday...you also can feed yourself when i was not around right?do what you want?i wont stop you..but i sure will give you suggestion and support you at ALL THE TIME...do you belive?

Because of you...i give up some of my favourite parts..i dint blame you..but i belive we should step in or step out...we need to learn sacrifice..sometimes you want that things i can`t 100% to give you...but I WILLING to do MY BEST to get it for YOU...

Lastly...i want to say...i love you very much...maybe i am not your future husband...i am not perfect boyfriend too..i just want you to take good care of yourself and do what you want to do...

I will set up my career well...Action speak louder then words..let's see...what is my resulf?only sucess or fail..if i fail..i sure will stand up again and do until i sucess...wait for me..what i promise you..i will go and do..belive me...Only the best...nothing less...I will Do my best...

S|LenT...

Look & listen,the wave the bird sounds and the lights is on!!what did you see?what did you hear and what is your feeling?

*Maybe We don't know what you thinks..but do you know what people thinking?

Se Chik Is going to have a big sick soon....haiz..because now i am saving money to enjoy my life..not out of country..but plan to go Pulau Redang..is a small islands..but can let me feel comfotable & relax..

Resign is a good choice for me..is me to think what is next?next step what should i do.heard alot of my rct are promote to L/cpl Cpl & Sgt..all of them are just started thier BB life..hope them enjoy and learn it..do not complain..

Now me and my dear dear going to have 3 years relationship le..haha..love her so much..but sometimez my hot temple is not good..she still can tahan...well...haha..alot of quarrel..alot of misunderstanding.but we can go through..haha..she give me alot of things..not i dun like..is just too expensive and i hurt..i love you..seriously..i am not a good leader..not a good boyfriend.. but i am a good man..wahahhaa..=-enjoy what we have-=